I’m not going to lie. The transition to becoming an entrepreneur was hard.
It was really hard.
But not for any of the reasons I expected. With no defined “end of the work day”, I was always thinking about work. Each morning I’d show up at my desk with a steaming cup of coffee, stressed out and grumpy. By noon I’d be three coffees in, feeling more behind than the day before.
The truth is, there are a million things you can do to grow a business. The vast majority of those tactics won’t be effective, but you don’t know what won’t be effective until you try. There will always be more things to try than you have the bandwidth to implement. The net result is always feeling like you aren’t doing enough. Meanwhile, fear grows in the pit of your stomach that two years down the road you’ll look back at a trail of failed tactics and have a sinking feeling that if you had only tried a few more, or implemented the ones you did try differently, then wild success would have found you.
All the while, influencer after influencer is selling the 5 steps that will guarantee success. Sharing their perfectly polished stories of growing their dream business overnight.
As fast as quicksand, the comparison monster set in, devouring self-confidence.
A few months into my entrepreneurial journey, anxiety mounted that I wasn’t learning fast enough or doing good enough.
After six months of choking on quicksand and beating myself into the ground, I had a moment of clarity that shifted everything. I looked myself in the mirror and asked, “Why am I choosing to be the worst boss I have ever had?”
It was a choice. As my own boss, I was able to show up to work in any way I wanted. I was able to work on whatever I wanted. But instead of showing up liberated by the excitement of untethered possibility, I had let myself drown in comparison and get crushed by unrealistic and arbitrary expectations.
Looking myself in the eyes was a true reckoning. This was the hardest part of becoming an entrepreneur. I could no longer hide. I could no longer blame others for feeling grumpy at work— no one except me was asking me to do anything.
The transition to taking radical accountability of my day, of my work, and of my life was a rough shift. But ultimately this shift had the single largest impact on my life.
When you drop all your old hiding places, when you drop the pattern of blaming others, you feel naked. Raw. Vulnerable.
This honest reckoning was a launch pad to dive deep into what was causing me to be the worst boss I ever had. For the first time, I dove deep enough to truly understand what was driving me. To see the fears that were hidden under layers of grit.
I shed so much along this journey of radical accountability. Old stories. Old patterns. Old beliefs. Through this shedding, I found myself. The truth is, this seismic journey in radical accountability was needed for me to realize how much personal power I truly have.
I made it through the quicksand and now I help others do the same. As a coach, I specialize in guiding clients back to themselves, their power, and their knowing.
The Shift Coaching was designed for those who find themselves standing at the intersection of success and soul-searching. Hungry for more—more depth, more meaning, more color.My coaching isn’t about providing all the answers; it’s about discovering the right questions that lead you to your own insights and breakthroughs. Think of it as upgrading your internal navigation system. One recent piece of coaching feedback described it well, “It’s as if that one seemingly simple question was the Jenga piece that made the whole illusion fall.”
The beauty of being human is that we aren’t stuck in one way of being. We are defined by our capacity for growth and transformation.
If you’re nodding along, feeling the pull to embark on your own seismic shift, check out The Shift Coaching.
I can’t wait to help you through the muck. Like a GPS for navigating out of the funk and into a vibrant life we all deserve.
